Mama Bear is BACK!
I feel bad that I didn’t post throughout the 1st 4 months of Hudson’s life. (Technically he is 16 weeks old today!). Its not that I didn’t have a lot to say…but rather no time to actually get on the computer. Ironically coming back to work has given me more time to do personal stuff. ;)
In short, labor was much more difficult then I thought but I was never scared. Just in a lot of pain. Having Hudson in the NICU for the 1st week was one of the most difficult things I’ve had to endure. I had no idea how sleep deprived I would be during the 1st half of my maternity leave, it too was more difficult to deal with that I had anticipated. I still miss sleep. I could go on about how the adjustment was difficult in the beginning, but it doesn’t really matter because I have a beautiful son that I love more then I ever could have imagined. Hudson is amazing, I am completely smitten with my child. He is never far from my thoughts and several times a day, an image of him (usually smiling) pops into my head and a giant smile crosses my face. Most of my afternoons at work are counting down the minutes until I can pick him up from daycare. I can’t explain how it feels when he breaks into a smile upon seeing me or looks at me with such love when I come into his room when he is crying. It is powerful, love is powerful. I’ve never been so happy.
